Day 5

So my team had an ice cream party to celebrate their scores -- I partook. and then to make up for it didn't eat anything for the rest of the night until I got home where I finished a bag of pistachios and had a piece of cheese. Hence, I gained weight today. One of my servers told me not to feel guilty -- that we worked hard for our scores and to just enjoy it. That's kind of what I tried to do but when you're so centered around losing weight it's hard not to feel guilty when you have a major cheat like that. And I feel like I'm just stuck around these weight numbers, but I know what I'm doing not to get there, so I know logically I can't be upset about the results to the work I haven't done. I am just so impatient right now it really blows. I know I just need to keep at it and that Rome wasn't built in a day etc. etc. but ugh, hopefully this will get easier. It's weird though I've been thinking about trying other things, but I still have medifast food left so I feel like I should finish that stuff up. (and it's saving me money right now) but I feel like all the food is just full of chemicals, so I'm thinking about doing a two week juice cleanse when I run out of my medifast food. or June 1 -- whichever comes first. ​

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Off to my workout class for the day -- also need to keep training for that run -- it would be really cool to be able to do the 8 mile run, but part of me feels like I should settle for the 5k, but just typing that feels like a cop-out. Don't settle, be great! Reach for the stars! Have another goal besides weight loss! -- let's do this incredible run, how many times will I get to do a run up the Kauai coast? ... probably never again so let's live it up, live life to the fullest and reach some goals! ​

​So let's define the goals:

1. Run the 8mile run June 1

2. Weigh 148 by June 1

3. Weigh 143 by June 15

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Now that I've written down the goals, I can't back out of them... I should probably sign up for the 8 mile run -- pay my money and everything so I can't back out. ​

​And, I think it's important to plan my victory rewards -- so when I reach my goals I can celebrate them. so, for my 8 mile run -- a pair of new running shoes and shorts I believe would be appropriate :) and I'll have to ponder on the other two... 

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